I am still grieving over loss of you, dear mom. When sadness and memory attack, that gut-wrenching agony makes my heart very low and i am short of breath, its raining in my heart and i am still disinterested in a lot of things. The daily reminder that you are not on earth and i cannot continue to share my life with you and to help you and dad becomes a heartbreak. The loss left me cruel thoughts of things i could have, should have, done more for you or for your wishes. And then, those anniversary dates, birthdays, mother's day... It never gets easier. My grief led me to writing. This website Vicky established allows us to contribute our thoughts, photos, lit a candle etc to express our feelings. It is such a warm recollection of my dear mom. All these sentiment takes time. I do not cry every day now but i am grieving in my other ways. I try to focus to give love to my other living loved ones, stayed occupied, exercise, and watch Korean drama... 因為看電視不需要思索!I am sorry that Jenny has to go through all these with me ever since your days were numbered after the diagnosis in late 2014. I wish i could tell you it will get easier emotionally and i am still praying for God's peace and his continued presence... And i know i am not alone🙏🙏🙏. Mom, i love you and i miss you a lot. Thank God for giving me such wonderful parents and i experienced so much love in them😘
David
19th September 2020